Vision Thing

Aside from being the title to a Sister's of Mercy song it is also an appropriate title for my post.

As I was getting ready to leave for work this morning it came to me in the form of a movie quote, "I am a man in search of a vision." Cheesy movie, but fun.

Anyways, it occurs to me that I am just such a man. In search of a personal vision. Trying to find the external to match my internal.

It's curious, but I feel no lack of self, yet I also have no sense of what it is I wish to do with my self. I've always found it difficult to answer the questions of what I see myself doing in 5 years, etc. Never had an answer for those kinds of questions.

Perhaps because I generally take what comes instead of forcing things. The branch floating down the river can't tell you what it sees itself doing 5 minutes from now, it doesn't know.

So I would say that is a personality thing that accounts for a certain amount of this lack of foresight.

I'll have to think about it. Because really life is too short to be totally subservient to the river. Sometimes paddling might be a good idea and you have to strike out for land, even though you can't be sure there aren't cannibals there.