I have been trying to figure out why I am somewhat reluctant to go to the Y today and then it hit me. On Saturday I was fine because Hugin came with me, and swimming is pretty much a solitary activity. One where your only interaction is with the medium in which you immerse yourself into. Enveloped in the soft caress of the water, the rest of the world fades to a blur and you become one with the tide. Today however is the fist time I will be attending a class. No backup from Hugin, just me, a classroom, a bunch of nice strangers who have been there from the beginning and a teacher. I don’t do well with strangers; I tend to curl up into myself as I look for ways to hide in plane sight. I know that this reaction/reasoning is all very silly, but no matter how many pep talks I give myself, no matter how many times I join a class/group/event where I am likely to meet new people, the shyness is always there.
Posted by munin at Febrero 11, 2004 07:44 AMFunny... for a self-described shy person, you have the largest & widest circle of friends of anyone I know. The next time you have these sorts of misgivings, please cast your thoughts on all of us who adore you. :)
{btw ~ plane sight? Poetic, yet troubling... something is on your mind?}
Posted by: edgar mousehat on Febrero 11, 2004 09:17 AMcheer up. that feeling won't last forever... =)
Posted by: kaydee on Febrero 11, 2004 09:46 AMLots of people feel the same. Some of us just seem to be aloof/arrogant instead of shy.
Posted by: Hugin on Febrero 11, 2004 04:36 PMEd. there is a whole post regarding friends and shyness that i should write up one day, for now suffice it to say that in spite of my timidness and shy ways i have been blessed with wonderful friends *poke* yes, this means you too!
Kaydee, i sure hope so! :o)
though over the years it has diminished a bit and only comes when i am trying something new involving lots of strangers. oh heck i'm in denial. it comes whenever i meet new people, even those i have "spoken" to via net.
Yes love, we've noticed. *kiss*
I'm the same way. And I hate talking on the phone. You'd think talking on the phone would be easier, they can't see me or anything, but I hate it. I have to work up my courage to call just about anyone, even something simple like making a doctor's appointment! It's always hard to move out of the comfort zone I think!
Posted by: Amber on Febrero 12, 2004 09:13 AM