Physics is a whole lot more fun when applied to real world things.
In other news, I still haven't decided what I want to be when I grow up. But I am currently suffering a job related extreme version of what I consider to be a social/societal waste of time.
I look at jobs and I think about how important it is in the relative scheme of things. What I'm doing and what I've thought about doing in the past have been mostly a big 0 from this point of view. The jobs I've done have really had no impact on anything.
I've had fun jobs, I've had some lousy ones. Currently my job is... irrelevent outside of its societal setting and I find that I am dissatisfied with that.
I feel the need to do something that has a bit more meaning. But there are limits. I can't be a doctor or similar health related profession, I just don't have the guts for it I don't think. I don't want to put myself in the line of fire, so police work is really out I think. I considered the fire department, and while I would have to do a bit of bulking up in order to pass physical requirements, I understand that it is a rather insular group and hard to get into. But it would be valuable I feel.
That's what's missing in a lot of jobs today. A value, outside of the importance that is placed upon it within society. A contribution to something more than just an aspect of an imposed civilization's needs.
I don't know if I am looking for a way to contribute to people, or just have a more lasting impact on some element of the world. I know I'm not looking to be a nobel prize winning chemist or physicist.
Maybe I'm just looking for something to take pride in.
I suppose a lot of jobs can have an element of that within them. Maybe the elements within me that determine the degree of pride in work have changed. Maybe they weren't important to me before.
Or maybe they have simply expanded in scope.
Posted by hugin at Octubre 28, 2003 03:40 PMArtistic creation is very meaningful. The older I get, the more I realize that creation is something intrinsically valuable; and more, it is a gift given to VERY few. Somebody just finished a book (don't have it yet) in Europe that argues that the rason musicians are so poorly paid is that music is seen as something almost "sacred". The only more poorly paid profession is the clergy. ???
Considered writing more?
Ah well, art as it becomes more valuable approaches and perhaps exceeds the point where it can have any meaningful value. True true.
Nothing happening in my headspace that deals with writing.
Oddly the notion of woodworking is marginally compelling. Carpentry at a conceptual level. A kind of, `it might be nice' to do. But not a practical consideration at this time.
Posted by: hugin on Octubre 28, 2003 07:51 PMI completely understand where you're coming from. I've spent the past several month (maybe even an year) contemplating this very thought. My work is of no use. Sure, people use it, but to me it holds no 'real' value. I'm still looking for that *something* to do that is both useful and I'm capable of it. Like you, I'm not looking to win any noble of prize or anything, I just want inner peace, I think. Or maybe just something more. I don't know, really. Still mulling it over. I hope that I stop mulling soon and take action though.
Posted by: Amber on Octubre 29, 2003 01:26 AMHard to describe isn't it Amber?
You can feel it, and can describe it in a way inside, but to put words to the `feeling' that you look for is much harder.
Well, luck to us both. Luck to us all.
Posted by: hugin on Octubre 29, 2003 10:00 AMone day you'll figure it our love. in the meantime we can have fun trying to figure out what fits, what doesn't and what makes you go "wahoo"!